Family...

Today my family made the trek home after spending a few days with Kirstin and I at our new place in KY. This mourning after a breakfast of french toast we spent some time praying. My parents have all ways been spiritual
leaders to us kids and have shown us how to live holy lives...but today
was something different. We didn't just pray together before a meal or
after a short devotion before school started or on a mission trip, we
prayed today as a family for each other. It reminded me of the joy I
find in meeting before The Almighty with others. It was a blessing to
be a apart of.In fact , I think I really needed it, not just prayer for
me, but praying for my family and just being apart of it. Kirstin and I
have not had a church home for quite sometime and we have yet to commit
to a church here in Louisville. We need otherChristians in our
lives...we can't do it alone. That is what God taught me this
mourning...and oh how I hope Kirstin and I can find a church that is
most like a family and not just a place ofcongregation on Sundays. God will provide it...He always provides!

Anyways,it was pretty fun having my whole family here, even Amy (who lives in
China) made it! We spent some time down town at the city waterfront
park, playing around with thefrisbee and soccer ball. And I can't fail to mention that we took ALOT of family pictures. We also went over to the Indiana side of the river and went to the Ohio Rive Nature Perserve...that was a crazy time! We had alot
of fun. The following day we ended up heading south toward cave
country...needless to say we were all pretty dirty at the days end. But
we did make it home and finished it with a late dinner and a movie.
Over all we had a lot of fun and I was so glad to have seen my family.
We don't ever seem to have enough time together, but I guess that is
growing up.

In the recent months I have been reading a lot more than I have in the past. Which leads me to the point that I was in the book store the other day first to spend time with God (date w/ Jesus) and second to pass some time while kirstin was a work. After enjoying a nice chia frappe and studying God's word I started looking around the store in various interest groups and I came across a book that is solely written confessions. Random people and the secrets the have. No one knows who they are, but the author puts together a book of pure honesty from the darkest areas of our lives and mind. I will admit that some of the confessions were good and were a blessing to read. It really is scary what some of the people were confessing to. It shows how much people really want to express what is plaguing their minds but are afraid of what people will think about them or afraid of dealing with the consequences that come with such an expression of pure honesty. Murder, Suicide, sexual exploits, sexual fear and abuse, eating disorders, hate, and the list goes on. It really makes you think about what kind of world we are in. America, the land of the free...there is no freedom when you are a slave to sin. That is what all this is about...sin. Hopeless sin. People are losing hope and are looking the wrong direction desperatly trying to climb out of the pit of hopelessness. It is so sad that they are missing the ladder that is right be hind them...the ladder God offers to get out of that hopeless pit. Anyways, it made me think about what kind of secrets do I hide...what is in the very depths of my mind that if the world only knew...

writing...

I am not sure what I am going to write about today...I just feel the urge to write something. In fact I have had that urge on a grander scale for about a year or so. It has been a growing desire of mine to someday write a book! At this point the possibility of me writing my own book seems strange and foreign on account of the fact that I do not know enough about any one subject to write a whole book on. Nor do I feel that I have the right tools to do so, as I am pretty ignorant to a lot of what is proper for writing something so big. On a smaller note, I have also had a desire to write out my entire testimony from the very beginning of my life to where I am at currently. More like a story rather than a quick summary of my coming to Christ. I even started out to do it once, but in a failed attempt to do so, do to my lack of focus at the time. Currently though I have the focus and desire at the same time, which leads me to this blog. Maybe I should start on my story. Hmm...

Anyways I am intrigued about the many responses I have received about my writing. Whether it has been a professor, friend or family member I have had several good comments about my writing. It is most strange to me because I have always been terribly bad at spelling and grammar or any sort of english or literature. In fact, if you were to hear me read aloud you would find that I am even poor at reading. Please don't get me wrong, I am not bragging about my writing, nor am I convinced that I truly do have a gift for writing. If I do possess a gift of writing, it leads me to wonder how might God have me use it? What does God want me to do with it? I often think about a sermon I might preach someday or a story I want to share/tell to someone with my words laid out perfectly the way I have rehearsed over and over again in my mind. Some how those words never make it to my mouth for a variety of reason...(never in a situation to do so, fear of what people with think, not a pastor, etc.). But maybe if I can harness those thoughts onto a sheet of paper somebody could read them. I don't know...God will have to create in me a calling to do something with my writing if it truly is a gift I possess. Anyways, I think i will end this blog for now.

Jobs

Well...today I went in for a second interview at a Nissan car dealership and I still have to meet with one more person. I am not sure how I feel about working at a car dealership, on one hand the thought of selling cars to people sounds like a lot of fun. I think that I could do a good job with it. However, the hours really are not that exciting and I would have to work every sat. with minimal time off. Also, I have been talking with a fella that owns a low voltage security systems and he wants to hire me as a sales person as well. I would not have to work holidays and most weekends! However, I would not have any time off at all the first year and only one week after the first year. Then I would get up to two weeks after two years of service. Maybe I hoping for to much, I guess I was spoiled in healthcare. The job would allow me to be independent and depending on how I do there will be opportunities to grow. The idea of selling cars seems alot more interesting to me than security systems, but I really don't want to be working those long hours and weekends all the time. Anyways, this blog is kind of boring; I promise they will be better in the future. Right now I am just trying to find something to do.

My First Blog in this Sight...

This one is short...I am only writing it so that I will have something on my blog site. Anyways, my sister Amy Inspired me to have a blog site. Just incase anyone is interested in what I have to say or learning about what it going on in my life. I hope to be consistant with it...we will see.

peace